The Fun is about to begin!!

Race day is almost here-soon it will Wednesday and we will be in route to Placid. Getting to this point has been a bumpy road. No doubt I have struggled alot this year-mostly mentally. Going back to work has taken a toll both mentally and physically. Working the grave yard shift is no joke. I've been seriously sleep deprived and I've paid a price. I've been sick-and I never get sick. I struggled the most this spring. Our household was INSANE w/three kids in three different locations on most nights, their mother training for ironman, and their dad training for ultras and maintaining a very busy nephrology practice. I worried alot-that all of this was somehow having a negative affect on the chillins. But you know what? They have parents who are doing what they love, following their dreams-that has to count for something. It has too. I truly believe we are better parents and happier people for doing so. I have faith this will trickle down. Nothing would give me more satisfaction and joy than to see my kids grow up to do what they are passionate about.

The photo is a picture of the ski jumps from the Lake Placid Winter Olympics. This is what I will see at about mile 20 on the run. This is where the shit either hits the fan or you keep your cool and cash in on a smartly paced ironman. This is where I'll be thinking about my kids the most. Telling myself that I have to prove to them that you can do anything if you want it bad enough. This is where I show them that their mom is no quitter. This is where I prepare to climb those ridiculous hills back to town where my family will be waiting (hopefully not too long!). This is where I try not to cry because I know if I do I will start hyperventilating. This is when I reflect on my day and remind myself there is no place I'd rather be at this moment in time-no matter how much it hurts. This is where I want to be.